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This book broke my heart. Jennette McCurdy was always one of my favorite actresses growing up. One reason was that her character had the same name as me, and I wanted to be just like her. I loved her kickass, and I don't give a f*ck attitude portrayed in iCarly. I also idolized her because she was seemingly so strong, resilient, and beautiful (which is now proven to be so true!). At the time, one of my childhood friends and I even wrote up a skit for our own version of iCarly, which we hoped to film in my parents' basement. I loved her, and I do even more after reading/listening to this memoir. 

Listening to Jennette recant the toxic relationship she had with her mother, learning how abusive and detrimental to her health her mother's actions were, yet still finding enough love and room in her heart to cherish her memory and relationship with her was flooring. I've struggled and still do on and off with eating disorder habits that have only been thrust upon me by my own negative thinking, I can't imagine what it must have been like to have had her mother spark the entire ordeal, and at such a young age. 

I not only respect Jennette for being so open and sharing so much with the world, but I applaud her for learning, healing, overcoming, and handling her grief, abuse, and past with such grace. As with anyone dealing with so much turmoil in their mind, the healing process is forever, but I am so proud she has taken the steps toward that. Inspiring many with her words and story to help heal themselves, break from toxic relationships, and learn to want to live. 

I could share this book's most interesting or heartbreaking moments, but I don't think I should. This book and Jennette speak for themselves, and it is certainly worth the read if you are in the right mental headspace to do so. If you grew up with Jennette as a figurehead in your childhood or have ever dealt with mental or emotional abuse, toxic familial relationships, disorder, or addiction, this book could be eye-opening for you. Put into perspective that you are not alone; you are not the only one to deal with such things or even to learn that you could have had it much worse. Jennette's words can be taken in various ways, but I choose to accept them as a way to keep healing and growing into my best self. To overcome the negatives.  

Jennette, thank you for your vulnerability and incredible story-telling skills. This book deserves nothing less than 5 stars. I hope you continue to grow and thrive by focusing on what makes YOU happy. 

As always, thanks for reading! 💜

Stars: ⭐️⭐️⭐️⭐️⭐️